Explosive Revelation: Teddi Mellencamp Finally Breaks Her Silence on the Rumored Affair With Her Horse Trainer – But What Stunned Fans Most Was Her Chilling Question: “Is My Cancer a Form of Payback?” Was It Just an Offhand Comment, or Is She Hiding Something Much Deeper? Timeline Clues Point to a Bigger Story….. read on

Teddi Mellencamp is finally addressing her alleged infidelity.

The “Real Housewives of Beverly Hills” alum, 44, appeared on Tuesday’s episode of “The Jamie Kern Lima Show” and opened up about her alleged affair with her horse trainer, Simon Schroeder, for the first time.

“I’ve never talked about it at all, just because of the kids, and I’ve never wanted anybody to have a guarantee whether it happened or didn’t happen, but what I can say is, did I do things that hurt other people? Yes,” Mellencamp said on the podcast.

Teddi Mellencamp on Jamie Kern Lima’s podcast.

Teddi Mellencamp’s horse trainer (right) with his wife. Facebook/Karli Postel

“To this day, does it still hurt my heart and I wonder if that’s why it got cancer? Yes… like it was my payback,” she continued. “So nothing goes without payment.”

In Nov., news broke that Mellencamp allegedly cheated on her husband of 13 years, Edwin Arroyave, with her horse trainer, who was also married at the time.

That same month, Mellencamp filed for divorce from Arroyave, 48, with whom she shares daughter Slate, 12, son Cruz, 10, and daughter Dove, 5.

Edwin Arroyave and Teddi Mellencamp. Instagram/edwinarroyaveofficial

Teddi Mellencamp in the hospital amidst her cancer battle. teddimellencamp/Instagram

Teddi Mellencamp in a selfie. teddimellencamp/Instagram

The estranged couple have temporarily halted their divorce proceedings while Mellencamp battles stage 4 cancer.

“However long it was, it was all over the press, it was everywhere,” Mellencamp told Kern Lima, 48. “You’re trying to minimize everybody’s pain. You end up maximizing it. Because now not only do you have yourself, you have your significant other, your kids, the other person’s significant other, their kids.”

Edwin Arroyave with Teddi Mellencamp. edwinarroyaveofficial/Instagram

Teddi Mellencamp’s horse trainer, Simon Schroeder, with his wife, Karli Postel. Facebook/Karli Postel

“So many people are hurt in the wreckage,” the former Bravo star continued. “But I can say this from knowing — the wreckage doesn’t happen on its own. I never had happened to me.”

Mellencamp explained that she “was so broken as a human being during that part of my life that I did things out of my better judgement.”

“I think I was so sick during that stage. I was looking for comfort anywhere I could get it,” she shared. “I felt so much pain. I felt so sick. I didn’t go to the doctors. I just felt some certain kind of way. And the pain was so much that I had gotten to the point of like, almost hating waking up in the morning, which I had never been that kind of person. I wasn’t myself.”

Mellencamp clarified that she wasn’t blaming being sick for her alleged affair.

“But I do think a bunch of things happened in my life all around the same time, and I had zero control of any of them,” she stated. “Like I just was running around like a chicken with my head cut off.”

Elsewhere during the interview, Mellencamp revealed that her family, including dad John Mellencamp, influenced Arroyave in his decision to hold off on the former couple’s divorce because of her health.